Stumbling Upon My Dreams

Stumbling Upon My Dreams

As I move in 2018 I want my MinnestonerGirl persona/essences to become the center piont of my life. I have struggled my whole life with trying to find my purpose, my passion, my reason to… life.

I have spent most of my life looking for my passion. I always knew I wanted to work for myself as my own boss. I wasn’t quite sure what I wanted to do with my life, so at seventeen years old I enlisted in the United States Army, Minnesota National Guard (a short blog post on my story of joining the army). I found one of my passions during my deployment in 2011-2012.  I wanted to be a public figure, I wanted to brand myself on social media ( like Jenna Marbles, one of my biggest inspirations). I wanted to work for myself on a social media platform and in the public owning a business, but doing what?? I am only truly passionate about things I was believe in & care about. I can’t just make myself passionate about anything. One of my first passions was make-up. But no one took me seriously, included myself. I came up with a million excuses why  I couldn’t make a career out of make-up. I loved watching YouTube videos of Nicole Guerriero, Shaaanxo, Karrissa Pukas, Jaclyn Hill, and Carli Bybel. I would sit down and do my make-up with them, it almost felt like I was doing my make up with a friend. I took their advice seriously because I felt like we had become friends. They were opening themselves up to the whole world by putting their lives out there. All while putting in a lot of time and effort . Only people who love something truly pursue it passionately, and I really believe that idea. I have watched all my favorite Beauty/Make-up Gurus grow over the years and achieve new goals, along with creating new heights possible to reach.

I decided to end my career with the military in 2015, when my six year contract was completed. I love the military and my time in serve for many reasons, but I knew in my heart that my passion didn’t lie within the confines of the military and its rules. When I separated from the Army I was able to do a lot of things, like get my nails done, color my hair grey, and smoke some marijuana.

During my time in service my stress and anxiety levels were at an all time high. After my first year of being out of the Army I found cannabis. I was nothing more than a recreational smoker, only buying a gram at a time. I visited a friend in Colorado during the first part of 2016, when my mental health was at an ALL time low.  I learned about some of the holistic benefits of the cannabis plant. While I was in Colorado I was able to fully part take in the benefits of the cannabis plant. It finally clicked for me, my passion was cannabis! Surely if I had an issue telling my friends and family I wanted to go to school for make-up, I knew I was going to have a hard time explaining my passion for MaryJane. This threw me into an even deeper depression than I was already was experiencing. Cannabis had been demonized for so long, that much of the community I live in believe the stigma, and misinformation surrounding MaryJane. I have become determined to change the stereotype and stigma surrounding cannabis. One of the barriers I wanted to break down was the misinformation surrounding the cannabis plant. I want to start by educating myself so I can PROPERLY education the community I live in. The best way to break stereotypes and stigmas is by being open and honest. So finally in 2017 I decided to start my MinnestonerGirl Instagram, twitter, blog, Youtube, and brand.

I am teaching myself daily how to properly run my website, Film, Edit, Upload to YouTube, Edit, Post, and interact on Instagram, interact on twitter, all while teaching myself how to become an entrepreneur. I have a problem with perfectionism; I envision a project in my head and I will not be satisfied until it is EXACTLY how I pictured it. This causes a lot of frustration and headache for myself. I often become too hard on myself and knit-pick every aspect of my videos, pictures, blog posts, and edits. Often to the point where I refuse to show my work till I get it JUST right. But life doesn’t work that way, and I need to learn to accept what I can’t change. I can only become the best entrepreneur I can be, by the work I put into myself. I am trying very hard to put out consistent content daily but sometimes I fail. I am still teaching myself and applying what I have learned. My dreams are big but they are fueled for my passion for the cannabis plant.

I know where I wanna go with MinnestonerGirl as brand, & as a whole. I finally found my passion, my fire, my dream, and I’m going to chase it. Its Cannabis